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Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Lets talk about good things.

The world is corrupt. Lately I've been thinking that the world is just getting worse and worse, but then I realize, its always been this bad. I just haven't known about it. Ignorance is bliss. Knowledge is a burden. Sometimes its hard to stay positive.

Lets talk about good things. I think I'm really starting to see results with my workouts. I went so long without noticing ANY difference. Now, I actually feel like a smaller person. Actually a really weird feeling. But I am, by no means, complaining. I love it. I think at this point I've lost a total of 10 lbs. since the January 14th.

Oh yeah, my fish died. Poor thing. He was only about a month old, if that.

I'm at work right now. Folding 500 programs for Opera Scenes. What a laborious task. Should be done soon. I get to leave early today because Nathan and I are singing in recital class and I have to go get my dress and stuff. Very excited about it.

Alright, back to folding. Have a nice day.

Friday, February 20, 2009

"TU school of music, this is Grace, how may I help you?"

I'm working in the music office. A few minutes ago, the phone rang and as I went to pick it up, I hit myself in the eye so hard I had to will myself not to yell obscenities into the phone. I was so surprised at how composed my voice sounded as I said, "TU school of Music, this is Grace, how may I help you?"

This was a good week. Next Wednesday Nathan and I are singing, "La chi darem la mano," together in recital class. Also, we're thinking about doing a recital together next spring. That will be so much fun.

I don't want to graduate from college soon. The prospect of that is scary and weird. Maybe once I get a little closer, I'll be excited, but I want to be in college forever right now. A year from now, I'll be student teaching and staring down the barrel of graduation. The only consolation at this point is that once I graduate I'll be earning money instead of paying to go to school.

I have been honestly enjoying my runs lately. That is something I never thought I would say. Wednesday I ran inside on the treadmill, and I was surprised at how much I like that. Really, I think I just need a change constantly. First, I got tired of running on the inside track, then I got tired of running outside (plus it was too cold), so now I'm switching to inside on a treadmill. I'm sure this will change very soon. I'm just excited that I've stayed with it.

This might be a record for me. I don't mean to make it sound like running/working out is easy for me, or that I don't have to almost physically MAKE myself go some days. In fact, I was telling Emma the other day: Every time I go on a hard run I tell myself, "I'm a total moron, I'm not a runner, and I'm never going to do this again." But I still do it. I'm conquering myself, God is conquering me. And it feels good. I think thats what keeps me going. Beating whatever it is inside of me that says tells me I'll quit.

It takes a certain amount of bravery to set out to do something you really think you can't do. But its the best feeling in the world when you find out you actually can. Yes.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Me and Nathan recorded our song the day before my birthday. It took about 3 1/2 hours. I loved it.

Nathan bought me Dennis the Menace and watched it with me. Twice. Literally a dream come true. My other expecatations for life are generally higher than this, don't worry.

I got a fish and named him Samson. "Samson went back to bed, not much hair left on his head,"This fish has very minimal hair on his head...

I went back to dance class. I'm getting pretty good. Its a lot better when Emma and Lauren come.

I ran outside Monday. It was amazing. 3 miles. Getting there.

So far, I have lost zero pounds. After a month of training and eating like a bird I weigh....exactly the same. Pretty incredible if you ask me. Not in a good way.

Haven't rollerbladed since the day I rollerbladed across campus. I did wipe out on Nathan's rip stick though. So now, my left elbow is still raw from the time I fell on my rollerblades, and my right elbow is freshly skinned from falling off the rip stick. Super!

I want to take a road trip soon. Not that I don't love being here...(I hate when people constantly complain about where they are, always saying things like, "I've gotta get out of this town...") No, I love Tulsa. Very much. But I also love going new places and making memories. I need to do more of that soon.