When we were in high school together, my older brother, Daniel, used to say that your friendships have levels. 1s - Best Friends. Kindred spirits. Bosom buddies. Life-timers. 2s - Really really good friends, people that you love dearly but you wouldn't tell your deepest secrets. 3s - People that you know, and are nice and friendly with, but you wouldn't really hang out with outside of where you know them from. 4s - Aquaintences. Wave and smile - but do you know their first and last name? "I know we're friends on facebook, but..." This is awkward. 5s - Enemies. We all know what an enemy is.
You can't look at a friend and lable them as one number for a life-time. Relationships go through cycles. A friend that was once a 1 might now be a 3. Maybe in a couple of years they'll be a 1 again. I've been thinking about this lately. A lot of my relationships are in weird transitions. Some for the better, some not so much. I suppose this is ok, even expected. But knowing that doesn't make the process less painful. Mmm, I just have to keep reminding myself - it takes one to know one. Be a friend. Love people no matter what. Some times I wish that God would just let me in on his plan. In the meantime - everyone needs a little Switchfoot in their life, they just do.
This song pretty much sums it up for me right now:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wlePWP7QvM
The Beautiful Letdown - Switchfoot
It was a beautiful letdown
When I crashed and burned
When I found myself alone
Unknown and hurt
It was a beautiful letdown
The day I knew
That all the riches this world had to offer me
Would never do
In a world full of bitter pain
And bitter doubts
I was trying so hard to fit in
Fit in, until I found out
I don't belong here (I don't belong)
I don't belong here (I don't belong)
I will carry a cross and a song
Where I don't belong
I don't belong
It was a beautiful letdown
When You found me here
Yeah, for once in a rare blue moon
I see everything clear
I'll be a beautiful letdown
That's what I'll forever be
And though it may cost my soul
I'll sing for free
We're still chasing our tails
In the rising sun
In our dark water planet still spinning
In a direction no one wins
No one's won.
See, I don't belong here (I don't belong)
Well, I don't belong here, I don't belong
I will carry a cross
With a song where I don't belong
I don't belong
I don't belong here (I don't belong)
No, I don't belong here, I don't belong
I'm gonna set side
And set sail
For the kingdom come, kingdom come
Your kingdom come
Won't you let me down, yeah
Let my foolish pride forever let me down
Ah, Easy living, you're not much like the name
Easy dying, you look just about the same
Would you please take me off your list
Easy living please c'mon and let me down
We are a beautiful letdown
Painfully uncool
The church of the dropouts
The losers, the sinners, the failures, and the fools
What a beautiful letdown
Are we salt in the wound
Hey, let us sing one true tune
I don't belong here (I don't belong)
It feels like I don't belong here, yeah
It goes like I don't belong here
I don't belong (I don't belong)
Won't you let me down (I don't belong)
C'mon and let me down (I don't belong)
You always let me down (I don't belong)
So glad that I'm let down (I don't belong)
C'mon and let me down (I don't belong)
'Cause I don't belong here
Won't you let me down.
G
Monday, February 21, 2011
Monday, February 14, 2011
My Valentine's Day gift from Nathan. Love love love!
I feel like things are back to normal today. The kids were able to have outside recess at school. It definately makes a difference for the them, but I noticed that being able to get outside in the middle of the day did me some good as well. Must be the vitamin D. Mmmm.
Today was pretty glorious, and the first day that I feel all the way well enough to run. I was dreading it a little, but it ended up being absolutely amazing. The weather coupled with being well rested made for a great time.
Nathan and I celebrated Valentine's Day yesterday with dinner at Red Lobster, a movie, and exchanged of gifts. As always it was a wonderful time. Yesterday out weekly Sunday lunch at the Hearns included ALL of the Hearn kids and their "loves." And we had steak. So good. It was pretty awesome to see the huge dining room table completely full. I love those people!
Friday night I had a girls night with my mom and sisters. We went to TGI Fridays, and let me just say it was SO MUCH FUN. They are the best friends of my life. I'm so thankful that God has made it possible for us to be close. I consider this a huge blessing. I LOVE `em!
I'm embarrassed about how completely excited I am that The Bachelor is on tonight. I can hardly stand it. 35 more minutes....
Happy V-day all!
G
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
I like using the word "googly" to describe things...
On Sunday Nathan took me to urgent care where they told me that my sinus infection never went away with the antibiotic that I got 2 and a half weeks ago, and that I also had the flu. This came as no shock to me. The frustrating thing was the amount of coughing that I have had for about a month now. I am happy to say that with my new antibiotic, my coughing has all but disappeared. St. Mary's had school Monday and Tuesday, and I missed both days because on the medicine I'm taking you're not supposed to drive or work. That was kind of a bummer, but I completely understand why they suggest doing neither of those things while on this medication. The best way I can think to describe the feeling is "googly." Googly, nauseous, and impared.
St. Mary's cancelled school today because we got another 10 inches of snow, so I got an extra day to recoup. Which is nice because the googly medicine is helping a lot, and tomorrow I'll have to stop taking it so I can go to work. Its not actually called "the googly medicine." Its Lortab. The doctor said that it has the same active ingredients in cough medicine (hydrocodone), so I didn't have to get 2 different prescriptions - they're knocking out the body/head aches and the coughing with one medicine. We'll see how tomorrow goes. I know I'll be completely exhausted by the end of the day, but it'll be good to see my precious students again. THAT, I am really excited about! Nathan dug my car out of the snow and turned it around so I wouldn't have to back out in the morning when I'm leaving for school. It has been 10 days since I have driven. Thats crazy, and might be a record.
Let me just say that Nathaniel David Hearn is the most wonderful person I've ever known. He takes care of me like no one else can. I love him dearly. So so grateful for him in my life.
Tomorrow its back to everything. It has been a week since my last run. I'm thinking that over training might have been partially to blame for the poor quality of my immune system. So I'm going to take it a bit easier now. Freaking out and trying to do a 5-miler right off the bat won't work. We'll try 1.5 or 2 for tomorrow and see how it goes. I'll get there...can't get ahead of myself. Hopefully I won't have to take a week off again.
List update: I went to Purple Glaze and Ida Red. My reaction to Purple Glaze was that it would be awesome to go there and spend the day - but that place takes time - something I did not really have. Its not really a stop by and browse kind of a place. I'll have to bring a friend and make a day of it. If I could do that, which I will, that place would be totally awesome, although a little pricy. Ida Red was pretty much a big fat disappointment. The people that work there were all talking to eachother when I walked in and didn't even look up when the little bell rang announcing my entrance. Oh and that never changed as I browsed around the store - it was like I was invisable. Not cool. Also, besides an extensive Toms selection - which was cool, the actual merchandise was pretty lame and way overpriced. While I will definitely make a point to return to Purple Glaze when I can do the experience justice, I will not make a repeat visit to Ida Red.
There you go.
G
St. Mary's cancelled school today because we got another 10 inches of snow, so I got an extra day to recoup. Which is nice because the googly medicine is helping a lot, and tomorrow I'll have to stop taking it so I can go to work. Its not actually called "the googly medicine." Its Lortab. The doctor said that it has the same active ingredients in cough medicine (hydrocodone), so I didn't have to get 2 different prescriptions - they're knocking out the body/head aches and the coughing with one medicine. We'll see how tomorrow goes. I know I'll be completely exhausted by the end of the day, but it'll be good to see my precious students again. THAT, I am really excited about! Nathan dug my car out of the snow and turned it around so I wouldn't have to back out in the morning when I'm leaving for school. It has been 10 days since I have driven. Thats crazy, and might be a record.
Let me just say that Nathaniel David Hearn is the most wonderful person I've ever known. He takes care of me like no one else can. I love him dearly. So so grateful for him in my life.
Tomorrow its back to everything. It has been a week since my last run. I'm thinking that over training might have been partially to blame for the poor quality of my immune system. So I'm going to take it a bit easier now. Freaking out and trying to do a 5-miler right off the bat won't work. We'll try 1.5 or 2 for tomorrow and see how it goes. I'll get there...can't get ahead of myself. Hopefully I won't have to take a week off again.
List update: I went to Purple Glaze and Ida Red. My reaction to Purple Glaze was that it would be awesome to go there and spend the day - but that place takes time - something I did not really have. Its not really a stop by and browse kind of a place. I'll have to bring a friend and make a day of it. If I could do that, which I will, that place would be totally awesome, although a little pricy. Ida Red was pretty much a big fat disappointment. The people that work there were all talking to eachother when I walked in and didn't even look up when the little bell rang announcing my entrance. Oh and that never changed as I browsed around the store - it was like I was invisable. Not cool. Also, besides an extensive Toms selection - which was cool, the actual merchandise was pretty lame and way overpriced. While I will definitely make a point to return to Purple Glaze when I can do the experience justice, I will not make a repeat visit to Ida Red.
There you go.
G
Friday, February 4, 2011
The snow must go on...
Haha, best blog title ever. SO MUCH SNOW! Everyone is complaining about it, and while I realize that it has created some problems and extra work for people, I don't hate it. This has actually been an awesome week. Nathan and I have been finding creative ways to entertain ourselves and today we finally ended up getting out of the house. The primary reason being that I was/am in desperate need of a breathing treatment (our friends Bobby and Liz have a nebulizer for their little boys) so we braved the roads, which are in fact, prety terrible and getting worse. So we're hanging out at the Reed's and enjoying it immensely. We brought things to make pigs-in-a-blanket (PIAB) and funfetti cookies. PIAB were a big hit, and we're gonna make the cookies with the boys in just a bit.
Right now Liz and I are watching Julie&Julia. I have to admit it has been nice to have companionship from someone of the same sex. Nathan and I have watched some weird movies the past couple of days because we've been trying to watch things that both of us would like. Some of our netflix selections include: The Outsiders, Part One of The Fellowship of the Ring, Going The Distance, and thats all I can remember right now.
One thing that I can definitely say that this snow storm has taught me is that I am married to the perfect person for me. Anyone else I probably would have killed or been killed by, by now. I love and treasure everything he is, so much. He's sitting across the room right now. He's just about it for me. Alright, I'm done now. : )
Blogging is a great way to pass the time while snowed in. I am enjoying it. Precious people. I am blessed.
G
Here are some fun snow pictures....
Right now Liz and I are watching Julie&Julia. I have to admit it has been nice to have companionship from someone of the same sex. Nathan and I have watched some weird movies the past couple of days because we've been trying to watch things that both of us would like. Some of our netflix selections include: The Outsiders, Part One of The Fellowship of the Ring, Going The Distance, and thats all I can remember right now.
One thing that I can definitely say that this snow storm has taught me is that I am married to the perfect person for me. Anyone else I probably would have killed or been killed by, by now. I love and treasure everything he is, so much. He's sitting across the room right now. He's just about it for me. Alright, I'm done now. : )
Blogging is a great way to pass the time while snowed in. I am enjoying it. Precious people. I am blessed.
G
Here are some fun snow pictures....
Snow angel...
Deep snow...
I love him...
Our hike to Wal-Mart...
HAPPY SNOW DAYS!!!
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Birthday Blizzard
Snow days are so weird - and fun. They don't feel like a Saturday...but they don't feel like week days...And in this snow, there's not really much you can do in the way of playing in it, at least until it stops actually blizzard-ing out there. Nathan suggests that we walk to Quik Trip (1.25 miles away). I asked him why, and he said,"To get stuff." Not motivation enough for me. Its probably not a good sign that I'm already feeling sort of cabin feverish...we're less than 24 hours in....
I have been texting my little sister who just told me that my brother wanted pizza so badly, that he set out walking to the nearest convenience store - BJ's - about a mile and a half from my parent's house. Well no one heard from him for awhile so my mom called BJ's and asked if he had gotten there yet. They said he had just gotten there. He left like an hour and a half before. My sister was telling me this, and said that no one in their right mind would be out in this weather...and thats when I said,"This is why Joel is out in this weather." If you knew Joel, you would know what I mean. He's CRAZY! (Not literally, because talking about him being crazy if he actually was, would be mean. He's just irrational - haha). Hope he got his pizza. I told her to text me when he got home - she hasn't texted me yet. Its sad that I am relying on her text to provide some excited in this day. That, and The Biggest Loser, tonight. But thats still 2 hours away.
Found out about an hour ago that we don't have school tomorrow either - huge surprise there. Hopefully tomorrow we'll be able to go outside and play in the snow. So much for running at all this week. I don't even think I could get to the gymn at The Greens to use the treadmill. Gosh. Yesterday I got a pretty good one in - 3 mi. That'll have to last me for the week. Alright, I'm done here.
P.S. Joel just got home. He got his pizza!
I have been texting my little sister who just told me that my brother wanted pizza so badly, that he set out walking to the nearest convenience store - BJ's - about a mile and a half from my parent's house. Well no one heard from him for awhile so my mom called BJ's and asked if he had gotten there yet. They said he had just gotten there. He left like an hour and a half before. My sister was telling me this, and said that no one in their right mind would be out in this weather...and thats when I said,"This is why Joel is out in this weather." If you knew Joel, you would know what I mean. He's CRAZY! (Not literally, because talking about him being crazy if he actually was, would be mean. He's just irrational - haha). Hope he got his pizza. I told her to text me when he got home - she hasn't texted me yet. Its sad that I am relying on her text to provide some excited in this day. That, and The Biggest Loser, tonight. But thats still 2 hours away.
Found out about an hour ago that we don't have school tomorrow either - huge surprise there. Hopefully tomorrow we'll be able to go outside and play in the snow. So much for running at all this week. I don't even think I could get to the gymn at The Greens to use the treadmill. Gosh. Yesterday I got a pretty good one in - 3 mi. That'll have to last me for the week. Alright, I'm done here.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Nathan really likes peanut butter twix. So whenever he gets one he eats both of the pieces and then blows up the wrapper and gives it to me, trying to make me thing he's going to let me have one. I know him so much better than that. Firstly, I know how serious he is about twix...Secondly, he isn't by nature a share-er when it comes to food. Like when I always ask him to split something with me, he has to have his own. So I didn't fall for his twix trick today and he was like, "Grace one of these days I'm gonna get you a twix, and you're going to slap it away but its gonna be real. I'll be the boy who cried twix." Ah...I just love him.
Here's another Nathan story. (I'm in love with him). The other day I got home before Nathan did so I sat in "his" chair, because its super cushy. Well, there's an ottoman (sp?) in front of it, so you can't really sit directly in it. Long story short...I ended up falling off of the ottoman, into the chair. I heard a loud noise. I have broken Nathan's Chair. I so debated not telling him..because if you fixed the cushion just right, you really couldn't tell...until you sat in it. He got home and he was in such a good mood and we were going to some friends' house to watch The Bachelor, so I decided to wait until after we got home. He was glad that I told him. I told him that I almost didn't. It was like when you confess something to your parents before they find out on their own and then your punishment isn't as bad. Obviously, I wouldn't have been in trouble with Nathan, but he definitely wasn't as mad as he would have been. And since he's a super awesome human - he was able to fix this tremendously hard to fix chair and is now sitting in it happily. James Taylor's "Handyman" comes to mind: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xzW1LEY125s . He's handy with love, and he's no fool...Also, he can just fix anything. For real.
Today while I was running a 8 yr. old shot me with an airsoft gun. I was at mile 4.5 and I was on a ROLE. So I see the kid and he sees me. He comes out into the street and starts running beside me. I could see it in his eyes - he was so aiming at me. Then, BAM! Right in the hip. Pretty ballsie. He then ran away rather swiftly as I yelled after him "I know where you live!!!" I SO do. He's gonna regret that decision...
Tomorrow is Friday - ra ding ding dip a doo! (Andy Bernard).
Grace
Here's another Nathan story. (I'm in love with him). The other day I got home before Nathan did so I sat in "his" chair, because its super cushy. Well, there's an ottoman (sp?) in front of it, so you can't really sit directly in it. Long story short...I ended up falling off of the ottoman, into the chair. I heard a loud noise. I have broken Nathan's Chair. I so debated not telling him..because if you fixed the cushion just right, you really couldn't tell...until you sat in it. He got home and he was in such a good mood and we were going to some friends' house to watch The Bachelor, so I decided to wait until after we got home. He was glad that I told him. I told him that I almost didn't. It was like when you confess something to your parents before they find out on their own and then your punishment isn't as bad. Obviously, I wouldn't have been in trouble with Nathan, but he definitely wasn't as mad as he would have been. And since he's a super awesome human - he was able to fix this tremendously hard to fix chair and is now sitting in it happily. James Taylor's "Handyman" comes to mind: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xzW1LEY125s . He's handy with love, and he's no fool...Also, he can just fix anything. For real.
Today while I was running a 8 yr. old shot me with an airsoft gun. I was at mile 4.5 and I was on a ROLE. So I see the kid and he sees me. He comes out into the street and starts running beside me. I could see it in his eyes - he was so aiming at me. Then, BAM! Right in the hip. Pretty ballsie. He then ran away rather swiftly as I yelled after him "I know where you live!!!" I SO do. He's gonna regret that decision...
Tomorrow is Friday - ra ding ding dip a doo! (Andy Bernard).
Grace
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
la la la la la la life is wonderful
Stayed home sick today. Went to the Dr. and he said I have a pretty bad sinus infection. Good news is that I found 5 bucks on the way to the doctor's office. Niiiiice. So I got some Panera while I was waiting on my prescription. Well I went to Target to get my prescription and I came out with that - and two new pairs of shoes. Here's my favorite...
Yeah, I pretty much love these.
Also went for a run this morning. Wasn't too sure how that was gonna go because I can't go 2 minutes without a coughing fit, but I actually felt better while running than I did before or after. Plus it was a gorgeous day, so I ran outside. Pretty wonderful. It felt SO GOOD to not be on a treadmill. I can run so much faster! And I did. 34 minute 5K today, which isn't a big deal for most people, but is pretty much a time I have only ever run when accompanied with race-day adrenaline. To offer a bit of perspective, I've been running a 5K in training in 37 or 38 pretty consistantly. So I'm a proud runner today.
I'm also now a proud member of Owasso's running group "King of the Road." Its a facebook group where invited runners can go to log their miles every day. At the end of the week the group admin adds up everyone's miles and the runner with the most mileage gets to have the "trophy", which is an actual piece of the road (a hunk of asphault about the side of a dinner plate) for the week. You wouldn't believe how motivating it is. I want that piece of road so bad!
Confession: Today (and not just today) made me realize how very very much I would enjoy being a stay-at-home mom. I adore my job. But I REALLY adore getting things done around my apartment, running erands when there aren't 5 million people at the store, running when its light outside, and TAKING MY TIME with all of it. There's a time and place for every season of life, and I know I'm not there yet. Also when I'm actually a stay-at-home mom, my day wouldn't be as blissful as today was because I am not, in fact, a mom. Kids would make a huge difference. But a good one. Ohhhhh, a girl can dream! And that is my dream, at least for now. I know plenty of people who are "the grass is greener" kind of people, and when they're a stay-at-home mom they wish they could go back to work...but when they're at work, they wish they could stay home. Well, we shall see! This is a long way off for us....
Tomorrow its back to school. I'm watching Heidi after work so I've gotta get my run in before school. Back to running in the dark, I guess. Oh, BTW I know I said that this blog was also going to chronicle my progress with "The List: 2011." It will do that - but I haven't really gotten started except for half-marathon training. More to come about the list SOON! Promise.
Grace
Also went for a run this morning. Wasn't too sure how that was gonna go because I can't go 2 minutes without a coughing fit, but I actually felt better while running than I did before or after. Plus it was a gorgeous day, so I ran outside. Pretty wonderful. It felt SO GOOD to not be on a treadmill. I can run so much faster! And I did. 34 minute 5K today, which isn't a big deal for most people, but is pretty much a time I have only ever run when accompanied with race-day adrenaline. To offer a bit of perspective, I've been running a 5K in training in 37 or 38 pretty consistantly. So I'm a proud runner today.
I'm also now a proud member of Owasso's running group "King of the Road." Its a facebook group where invited runners can go to log their miles every day. At the end of the week the group admin adds up everyone's miles and the runner with the most mileage gets to have the "trophy", which is an actual piece of the road (a hunk of asphault about the side of a dinner plate) for the week. You wouldn't believe how motivating it is. I want that piece of road so bad!
Confession: Today (and not just today) made me realize how very very much I would enjoy being a stay-at-home mom. I adore my job. But I REALLY adore getting things done around my apartment, running erands when there aren't 5 million people at the store, running when its light outside, and TAKING MY TIME with all of it. There's a time and place for every season of life, and I know I'm not there yet. Also when I'm actually a stay-at-home mom, my day wouldn't be as blissful as today was because I am not, in fact, a mom. Kids would make a huge difference. But a good one. Ohhhhh, a girl can dream! And that is my dream, at least for now. I know plenty of people who are "the grass is greener" kind of people, and when they're a stay-at-home mom they wish they could go back to work...but when they're at work, they wish they could stay home. Well, we shall see! This is a long way off for us....
Tomorrow its back to school. I'm watching Heidi after work so I've gotta get my run in before school. Back to running in the dark, I guess. Oh, BTW I know I said that this blog was also going to chronicle my progress with "The List: 2011." It will do that - but I haven't really gotten started except for half-marathon training. More to come about the list SOON! Promise.
Grace
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